July 12, 2008 | Posted by Martha |
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Eloise and I have been spending a lot of time alone together this week. Chris and the other IT guys have been moving all their company’s systems over to the new building (right across from Powell’s downtown - yes!) this past week and this weekend. They have to do it all when no one else is working, so as not to disrupt work flow, which means he’s been getting home late and working weird days, like today, which is Saturday. I am sick of it! I hope we get to keep him home tomorrow, Sunday. Here is Eloise earlier this week waking up with Chris, who was headed out to work. We try to wake her by 7-something if she’s still in bed. That seems to be her best wake-up time.

Today we went to cousin Keira’s second birthday party at Gymstars. The toddlers seemed to have fun, but Eloise was a grump because although she took a 2-plus-hour morning nap, she was about due for her afternoon nap just as the party started. She managed to hurt Papa Dan’s feelings again and I’m sure tainted a lot of the home videos with whining and grumping. I also had to break the news to the family that Chris got a mohawk. He says it was to celebrate the move and all the work they’ve done, but I have to disclose the full truth, which is that he has had a bee in his bonnet for a long time about getting a mohawk. I thought it would look dumb, but I was wrong. He actually looks really cute, dare I say, hot even! But not nearly as cute as his daughter. Oh look, this picture is terrible, but you can see Keira and her friends playing with a parachute. Remember doing that when you were little in gym class? You’d wave the parachute around and then throw it in the air and sit on it as it came down to make a huge tent? God, that was so fun. I hope Eloise gets to do that some day.

I am struggling with feeling really bored as a stay at home mom some days. Well, for parts of most days. It’s not that Eloise is boring. Things just move really slowly with a baby. Nanny reminds me that I am very goal-oriented, very oriented toward projects and to-do lists, which is true. But none of that works with a baby, at least not with the way we’re doing the baby thing right now (which is me staying home with her). I feel like I can’t do anything some days! But then I talk to other moms, and I realize that when I look back, this is all going to seem so fleeting. It’s so easy to forget that sometimes (especially in the moments when I cannot see beyond the clutter in my house or figure out how to eat something). So in addition to thinking about and planning for getting some help with child care in the near and more distant futures, I am also going to try to relish the current slowness. Given my proclivities, I am not likely to live life in slow motion ever again, so I will try to make the most of it.
Toward that end, Eloise and I have been lounging in the grass a lot. We throw down one of the blankets Pia made for us and lie around. Eloise likes to grab at the grass, hold onto her feet, and watch the trees and the ferns. Sometimes I read a book, and sometimes I look at the grass and the trees too. It’s been a long, long time since I spent any time whatsoever looking at grass and trees and bees. Turns out they’re very beautiful and interesting.
I am not ashamed to admit that I read People.com almost every single day (okay, I use the term “read” very loosely here). Today I read that the first pictures of the Jolie-Pitt twins are worth $13 million. By my estimation, then, these shots of Eloise lounging outside with me today will surely fetch a cool $13 billion. But you all get ‘em for free. Aren’t you lucky?!

What a long blog post. I thought Chris would be home by now; it’s quarter to 10 at nigt. I’ve eaten a sickening amount of fancy French cheese and bread, and now I’m eating lentils, rice, and carmelized onion, which is about a thousand times more delicious than it sounds. If anyone has made it to the end of this post, please send recommendations for more good nonfiction (in paperback). I just finished Omnivore’s Dilema and loved it. I am reading The Man Who Mistook His Wife for a Hat right now. But then my docket’s empty. Given that I read in fits and starts (while nursing Eloise), I can’t really handle fiction right now.